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As I sit in front of my computer after several failed attempts to get to sleep I started thinking about life.
At a stage of my life where I should be focusing on my A level exams which start on Thursday I am stuck worrying about a team that has engulfed my life since I started supporting them in 2004.
I have experienced some huge highs and depressing lows. Fulham has brought me some of the best moments of my life; seeing my name in the match day programme introducing Billy the badger to being a ball boy at the victory against Arsenal last season. Craven Cottage has been my little retreat. A place where I can get away from the worries of life and just be happy (what ever the result might be).
With under twelve hours to go to kick off of the biggest game I have witnessed, I discuss all areas of life with Kinglegwinski. It suddenly hits me that I know more about the little club we all hold dear than I ever will about Electronics or Physics.
Fulham has become an obsession of mine. I have a wall of my room dedicated; with a signed shirt, a couple of signed pictures and a picture of the hallow pitch covering the white surface.
So as time continues to count down I think to myself, "How will I cope if we don`t do it?!?" I have been all positive up too now. Refusing to believe anything but a win could happen has got me so far, but why do I feel like I am about to perform in front of thousands? Why is it now I become so nervous and insecure about our future.
Relegation won`t be the end of the world, but will be a huge blow. If reports are true we simple won`t be able to afford the drop. It could mark the beginning to the end of Fulham FC as we know it and could bring us into a new dark age.
So come three o`clock today maybe more than just our premiership life will be on the line! This truly is a HUGE game. Should we lose it will put myself personally in a terrible mindset leading to my exams, should we win I might find some inspiration, a realisation that it`s never too late! Never say never as you English say.
So here is one last plea to the players I admire so. Please, put everything you can into this game. Throw your bodies on the line. Run yourselves into the ground and play a game that you can boast and smile about when you have your grandchildren around you.
I am sure I am not the only Fulham fan feeling these same emotions.
From a desperate young fan I wish you all the best and at this point scream Come On You Whites!!!